the poetics of sex.

2006-11-06T16:28:00.000+08:00

Playing:i will go down with this ship.goodbye my OTP. :'(i need to mourn properly. sigh.my heart is heavy. this will probably kill me before Os does.

2006-11-04T18:01:00.000+08:00

Playing:What a great motivation this is.Keep your eyes on the card!*explodes*what lies behind the rose that Shane removed from the table.Mark's finger scrolling down the name list. *giggles*Keep your eyes on the phone!ahhhhhh. *is dead*

2006-11-03T01:51:00.000+08:00

Playing:RUNNNNN AWAYYYYYY!!!!!!

2006-11-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

Playing:to disappear without a word.if only to just see who cares enough.no?

2006-10-31T14:18:00.000+08:00

Playing:I WANT TO MARRY THAT MAN. LIKE NOW.argh fakghelgnelwn *thud* i know i'm gross but ARGH, I WANT TO RAPE SHANE.hahahahahahaha. okay. i didn't say that.okay all together now, OH.MY.FUCKING.GODlike holy shit. how can one man look that hot.and no, i don't want to rape Nicky. I WANT SHANE TO FUCKING RAPE HIM!!!!!1111!!i swear, shane and nicky can srsly turn me straight. :|

2006-10-29T10:41:00.000+08:00

Playing:Warning! Yummy food ahead!!!This.Became..This. far too quickly.Say hello to very very nice cakes. My stomach can assure you that! :PThe full thing reads, "I *heart* Chocolate". From Wenlin, naturally.and idk wtf were these chickens doing outside a freaking SHOP. :|

2006-10-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

Playing:I'm ill. ):I swear that bad things always come hand in hand.May there all begone soon. Meanwhile, I shall continue seeking solace in food and get so fat and only have myself to blame. But what else can a girl count on in times of needs? FOOD! Gloooorious food.

2006-10-26T01:43:00.000+08:00

Playing:i'd like to think the accuracy of the damn thing has awaken me.but i think not.i think i do need to get away, like i always felt i should.

2006-10-26T01:27:00.000+08:00

Playing:Lyrics to my life:- My head speaks a language, I don't understand.- If I stopped lying, I'd just disappoint you.GEEEEE. I want to bakebakebake and cook!SPAM on english muffin with chedder cheese is just about the nicest thing ever!

2006-10-23T20:33:00.000+08:00

Playing:Things I have managed to spill today:1. Water all over the floor. Breaking one of my favourite bottle in the process.2. Milk tea over the table and on my card case. Wetting my papers and splashing tea over my photo of Shane on my ez-link card. Which, I left on the table to dry and a part of it stuck to the table. ):3. Water onto the floor again.I am officially a big klutz. I am still

2006-10-21T02:41:00.000+08:00

Playing:look at that people! that cake is like a symbol of Heaven. and boy, was i in Heaven!it's from Gloria Jean's at Raffles Mall. yummy, i'd definitely go back there! YUM.sushi tei's salmon sashimi OWNS! *dools endlessly*with braces, tofu will become your best friend.i love me some tofu! YUM.but most of all, I LUUUURRRVVVEEEE my girlies!

2006-10-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

Playing:fuck the entire fucking world.

2006-10-16T00:10:00.000+08:00

Playing:Snagged from Brenda's blog. Cut out the damn instructions cos it's too long.My life is beyond boring, I have to do such things! sigh.1. Starting Time: 12.13am2. Full Name: ELINN KONG3. Best Friend(s): GILLY. <3 (LOLOLOLOL)4. Sexiest Friend: GILLY! (*dies*)5. Funniest Friend(s): nearly everyone. bunch of cracked up people, gawd.6. Smartest friends: probably stupid JACKIE BOO. 7. Dumbest

2006-10-13T11:49:00.000+08:00

Playing:it sucks to have cement in your mouth. but i shall persevere, for nicky is my hero!right. byebye cheeseburgers, scones, bread, pizza, rice, noodles, steak, muffins, peach tarts, chicken rice. i'll have you all in my mouth in about a month's time. JUST YOU WAIT!!!!

2006-10-11T10:52:00.000+08:00

Playing:previous post deleted because it was stupid. right, so i'm not as crazy as i thought i was. HAVE NO FEAR! or fear more because i think i'm more dangerous when i'm being my 'normal' self. right, so anyway, i'm still very much in love with westlife and mr shane filan. my pictures are safe and i never drew a perpendicular bisector over my shnicky photos because they stand so close together,

2006-10-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

Playing:CHOCOLATE CHIPS SCONES. PIPING HOT, FRESH FROM THE OVEN.yuuuuummmy. i devoured it quickly and i still have 2 to tide me by. i'm a bloody satisfied girl now. i'm happy when i get my scones. today is a good day besides having smelly air con men coming to my house. but it's not too bad because at least my air con's colder now.anyway, not to digress further. TODAY IS A GOOD DAY!!! i got my

2006-10-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

Playing:first of all, I AM JEALOUS. SO FUCKING JEALOUS. ):i swear i've never been more jealous of anybody before. UNTIL NOW.and WHY? you may ask. because I DON'T GET TO SEE WESTLIFE NEXT YEAR AND THE YEAR AFTER THAT. unlike thousands of lucky people. sigh, the agony of being a crazed fan living in bloody Asia.my respond to my mom's 'what you want for birthday' question is:"air ticket to UK and

2006-10-07T01:19:00.000+08:00

Playing:you know i'm really losing it when i scold my ipod - Shnicky, after well, Shnicky - to stop playing Moon River after it played that song for the thousandth time. and my new phrase to use when people annoy me is, "HEY WHATEVER!"see what O leves have reduced me to. and i keep drinking coffee i'm going to die from caffeine overdose. my teeth hurts like a bitch (i keep saying that) and i

2006-10-01T02:20:00.000+08:00

Playing:sigh. the big disappointment i had when i bit into my chocolate chip scone only to realize it was bloody RAISINS and if there's any fruit i hate most, it's raisins. ): i'm a serverly disappointed girl who still craves for her chocolate chip scones. some asshole probably thinks it would be funny to switch and put raisins scones into the bag that says "CHOCOLATE CHIP SCONES - $1" and cause

2006-09-29T18:04:00.000+08:00

Playing:3 weeks ago today, I was sitting outside SIS patiently waiting the arrival of the loves of my life. I miss the exhilarating feeling. Sigh.Foods I have the ultimate cravings for now:- Provence's choc chip scones with cafe mocha (GET THEM FOR ME AND I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER!)- Super chocolatey chocolate cake- Al Azhar's plain naan with tandoori chicken (yuuuuuummmm!), washed down with my all

2006-09-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

Playing:It's hard trying to succeed when your failures keep haunting you.2 months more to go. I will do well, I will not fall.

2006-09-25T15:54:00.000+08:00

Playing:Q: A friend whose name starts with 'M'Melissa!Q: 4th person on your missed calls?mommmyQ: What did your last text message say?asking jacjac if she's coming online. lol.Q: Do you chew on your straws?most of the time.Q: Do you have curly hair?HAHAHAHAHAHAAA. no.Q: What is the next concert you're going to:hopefully, Westlife!Q: Who is the coolest person in your life?that's simple, myself!Q:

2006-09-23T01:37:00.000+08:00

Playing:7 Random things I enjoy doing:- parading around in my Westlife shirt! pride much?- eating at holland v! :D :D- grating food.- cooking!!- walking through aisles of baking things- watching the same video over and over again- LOOKING FORWARD TO SATURDAY!

2006-09-19T14:55:00.000+08:00

Playing:NEW LAYOUT. no, not new actually, its old. i used it sometime last year and i'm using it again. i'm back to my shnicky mood, not that i've ever gotten out of it, and the joy of seeing them on my blog is just YAY. lol please ignore me.prelims are ending and i hope i can just scrape through it, i know physics is a goner for me though. concert seems like a long time ago thing and it feels

2006-09-15T11:15:00.000+08:00

Playing:When you came alongYou know you save me from,Ordinary daysYou left me with your touchSo thank you very much!Today marks one week since the concert ended and yet I still get the shivers whenever I think about it. I'll miss the adrenaline rush, the seemingly endless euphoria and the giddiness of being so overly happy. But most of all, I'll miss Westlife. Its funny how they, doing what

2006-09-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

Playing:You are my very first thought in the morningAnd my last at nightfallYou are the love that came without warningI need you, I want you to know.Jacjac is right, love is an understatement.Chronicles of the Happiest Day of My Life (aka meeting Westlife):Part 1Part 2

2006-09-08T11:37:00.000+08:00

Playing:thank you westlife for finally coming. thank you mark for giggling when i touched your ass and for being so goddamn nice. thank you nicky for answering my shnicky question and giving me that fucking sexy smile and for being so FUCKING SEXY I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. thank you kian for signing even though you're so grumpy. hahahaha.thank you to the love of my life, shane filan. :D :D after that

2006-09-07T05:02:00.000+08:00

Playing:its official. westlife have turned me into a raging insomniac. i can't sleep, i just can't breath, when your shadow is all over me baby. hahahaha i'm being a corny ass now. I NEED SLEEP. i'm so fucking nervous, my stomach keep churning and i keep wanting to puke. oh no. i'm gonna explode and cry when i see them. please please please please let me see them tomorrow. i want to propose to

2006-09-04T01:31:00.000+08:00

Playing:i'm annoyed because recently my favourite sites are not cooperating with me. yesterday it was livejournal and friendster, today its blogger. but at least its working now.ANYWAY, crazy wenlin's birthday was fuuuunnn. at least, it ended on a great and fun note. i never knew jac and i had so much arty talents and creative juice in us. i think the present we did for wenlin is so damn fucking

2006-09-02T02:51:00.000+08:00

Playing:HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENLIN!! i love you girl. we'll all meet in a couple of hours.have a fucking great birthday! its not everday you turn 19 with your 15 year old friend. LOL.

2006-09-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

Playing:i've been tagged by JACKIE BOO.7 random facts about me:- i believe in the existance of vampires. and am slightly obsessed.- i have the tendency to read too much into things and think people are gay.- i have an unexplainable love and obsession for Westlife.- i talk to myself to keep myself sane.- i love food but i can get very obsessed over my weight.- i am very random and very neurotic.-

2006-08-27T23:52:00.000+08:00

Playing:i apologize for my previous melancholic post, i was just being sour and sulking over the fact that my social life is in ruins now. you won't want to hear me go on and on about my social life, or rather the lack thereof. i need good food and lots of coffee now. anyhow, 12 more days and i'll finally meet my boys.this wait is proving to be pretty exciting. from having dreams about fat men

2006-08-25T00:30:00.000+08:00

Playing:I am sad. ):

2006-08-20T15:24:00.000+08:00

Playing:anyhow, 19 MORE DAYS till i see my boys.excited much? TOTALLY.

2006-08-20T15:02:00.000+08:00

Playing:after slaving away the entire afternoon doing my stupid coursework, i managed to slip some time and meet up with my lovelies. i don't know how they do it, but they always manage to make my life seem oh-so-bright. :]this photo wins at life. i think i terrify jac (and myself) too much sometimes.sometimes i even reduce her to tearsus the big brats, wenlin the lost kid. sigh.see how happy

2006-08-18T19:34:00.000+08:00

Playing:Editted the codes of my tagboard to suit those still using IE. I discovered that I cannot please both Mozilla and IE users, hence the tagboard will be universal but the rest shall suit Mozilla users because I use that lol. And I hate it if my things look imperfect. Yes, I'm strange like that.I need food and rest now. ): The lack of those plus the added factor of my declining social life

2006-08-13T02:51:00.000+08:00

Playing:Because it's okay to feel things and be who you are about them.We accept the love we think we deserve.

2006-08-12T16:26:00.000+08:00

Playing:i never knew laughing and crying could prove to be so taxing on my energy and what fun it is too. months of slaving has paid off. i may not have got the best grade ever but i know where i stand, and i shall not be so greedy. goodbye chinese! now on to the other crucial subjects. I'VE DONE MYSELF PROUD!!!!where are my books just when i want to burn them? ):thank you to everybody who has

2006-08-12T00:22:00.000+08:00

Playing:this is looong overdue. sorry jaime! lol.I have been tagged by JAIME!Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs. INSTRUCTIONS: 1. Do the following without complaining. 2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed

2006-08-06T23:52:00.000+08:00

the neverending rooms beckoning me, daunting me.singapore shortcuts was pretty good. i think its amazing how they made an entire film on a 16mm camera. and the huge lump sum of money they spend, wooooah. camwhoring after that was fun as usual. and we had BEN&JERRY'S!!!! yay. i love ice cream and i had coffee too.fireworks after that was good and so was supper. what a long day whew but it totally

2006-08-06T02:24:00.000+08:00

Playing:So need your love, so fuck you allI'm not scared of dying I just don't want toIf I stopped lying I'd just disappoint you

2006-08-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

Playing:i'm one super deliriously happy girl right now. guess who i met?HEEEE.it may be unhealthy for a 15 year old to be so obsessed with a man more than twice her age but fuck it. i shall be straight until the end of the day lol. yay. i'm a fucking happy girl.

2006-08-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

Playing:being alone at home bores the fuck out of me. i'm so lonely i make myself depressed.i don't even want to eat anymore. and i think my grandma thinks i'm aneroxic. ):i'm keeping myself happy because of 8sep. yay.

2006-07-31T23:20:00.000+08:00

Playing:i'm an exhausted girl now. the past few days getting myself all hyped up over the concert and getting so high has totally drained me of all possible energy. and here i was thinking i was young and vibrant. ): i'm so excited nevertheless and september8 cannot come any sooner. i love pirates and vampires and cowboys now (like my new shirt!). i want to marry elizabeth swan too. and captain

2006-07-28T13:12:00.000+08:00

Playing: WESTLIFE IS COMING. LIVE FRONT ROW CENTER TICKETS. I OFFICIALLY WIN AT LIFE.jac and i make a great team. from efficient phone call to wake her up to rushing here and there saying i need to answer nature's call. I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M GOING TO SEE SHANE, NICKY, KIAN, MARK IN FRONT OF ME LIVE. FRONT ROW BABY. FRONT FUCKING ROW. 42 more days. i will contain my excitement. after 8 years of

2006-07-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

Playing:i am inconsolable right now. my grief has extended beyond words and anytime now, i may just pummel a knife into my chest. i'm so sorry. i was being a total emo kid there. however, the reason for my grief is that i missed project runway and blogger refuses to let me upload a picture of fei xiang as emcee and some guy who i believe is bobby.YES YES YES. i went to watch Cabaret last night.

2006-07-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

Playing:these two days out with my girls have been great. from scaring waiters at TCC to pigging out on the ever delicious Chocz buffet. i have a great fondness for smoked salmon and fresh prawns. yum. i'm really gonna be seeing them a lot lesser in the following months which i really dread. ): but caberat on tuesday, i'll see boey bean, yay. hahaha.we are so amazing we'll knock you over.i may

2006-07-17T23:46:00.000+08:00

Playing:i know now the feeling of having words fail me.

2006-07-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

Playing:"It is precisely because the other holds back that one loves him all the more. It is struggle which feeds passion and gives it form. It is trouble. It is the eternal need to seduce, to convince, to bind, to hold on which is the food of love. And so, we find ourselves in a vicious cycle, ever failing just when we believe we have triumphed, routed in the end because it was impossible that

2006-07-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

Playing:feast your eyes on the little beauty, clarissa-kayla. she looks every bit like my cousin but she has really long fingers (!!! are you thinking what i'm thinking, lol) adnd feet. pardon me please, i'm feeling very delirious now.self-study fucking sucks man. i'm still suffering from post-world cup lack of sleep and now i'm getting even lesser sleep. but today session was omfg-fun. i think

2006-07-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

Playing:please please don't let this be a hoax. i want all of you to come so much. ):

2006-07-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

Playing: Rivermayathe king and the clown is a fucking good movie. heck, i'd even say it's better than brokeback mountain. that androgyny boy is so fucking beautiful even dap wants to turn straight for him lol. the movie is funny, sad, touching, sad and have i mentioned sad? i'm such a weeping bean. boo. oh plus its only NC16 so go watch it!this serves as a reminder for me to get pictures of

2006-07-02T02:23:00.000+08:00

Playing:Its all over now. ):

2006-06-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

Playing:welcome into the world, little one. (:

2006-06-24T22:19:00.000+08:00

Playing:I found this in my aunty's house, within it is a pair of nipple stickers. Pretty funny, really.

2006-06-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

Playing:I should be less vindictive.

2006-06-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

Playing:i'm craving for yoghurt topped with muesli and honey oats.lately i feel abandoned and left behind. but then again, this might be the result of my severe lack of sleep and constantly throbbing right eye. i'm sleeping better now though. it seems like i haven't really done much this holidays what with spending the first week stuck at home nursing a swollen cheek and 2 other weeks rushing

2006-06-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

Playing:to my rainbow friends and rainbow loving friends:http://blog.sayoni.com/2006/06/13/smile-campaign/please click that link and read the article. should we plan a day for our photos to be taken? heh.

2006-06-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

Playing:kayaking alone in the vast sea beneath the somewhat sunny sun is pretty nice and seems to be good for my soul. i felt pensive, somewhat happy and glad that i'm finally getting a good workout. i got too much fats on me for my own good so i need to diet like pronto. i should also pray hard that i'll be able to sleep normally soon, whatever normal means.this upcoming sunday, i'd get

2006-06-12T00:13:00.000+08:00

Playing:I turned time back a bit to do this:HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELICIA!!!!

2006-06-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

Playing:i have so much fears that i don't know where to begin. i fear i'll never be good enough, i'll never be the person i want to be. i fear i'll never do the things i want to do and i'll never feel what its like to love again.i fear my fears will destroy me someday. and each of my fears are like a piece of glass, stabbing viciously into my skin and dragging across it. even when its all gone,

2006-06-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

Playing:Never drink coffee when it has already turned cold.

2006-06-08T01:09:00.000+08:00

Playing: Lifehouse - UnknownMy June holidays would be a much eventful and fun one if I didn't have to go back so often for tests that I have no clue how to do (which is srsly bad, considering how close to Os it is), having my random insomnia weeks now and being unable to Math. Somedays I feel so nonchalant about Os but on days, I envision myself getting back shit results and I freak out about

2006-06-06T03:09:00.001+08:00

Playing:Not my picture, not made by me, but it sounds like me. Why?

2006-05-29T17:01:00.000+08:00

Playing:Today is officially one of the most life changing days of my life.The fate of my Chinese results lies in the teachers marking it, please give me at least a B3 but if you want to give me any higher than that, I'll welcome it. It'll be one of the best present ever.I am also short of one wisdom tooth now. I am bleeding so much now that my legs feel soft. With two pieces of gauze stuck in my

2006-05-28T14:41:00.000+08:00

Playing:Fuck. I wanted to post a QaF related picture but photobucket and blogger refuses to work for me. ):Good luck to everyone that's taking the O Level MT Paper tomorrow!

2006-05-28T01:14:00.000+08:00

Playing: The Murmurs - Big TalkerCoffee and mudpie are great at perking you up when you go through nearly a day when you feel like everything's going wrong. One of those "i feel fat, ugly, disgusting, stupid etc" days.Justin: Who's talking about Ethan?! I meant Brian!God, don't I just know how you feel Justin.

2006-05-27T01:34:00.000+08:00

Playing:*facepalm* i think i officially died. from my convo with jacjac to oogling at qaf.i cannot find the strength to say i need you so says:wei~i cannot find the strength to say i need you so says:wo dui ni yi pian zhen xin◙ ºº [S]ümm3R ºº ◙ says:bie zai shuo lei cannot find the strength to say i need you so says:wei he! ni bu neng ze yang dui wo!◙ ºº [S]ümm3R ºº ◙ says:shi ni xian de◙ ºº [S]

2006-05-26T16:23:00.000+08:00

Playing: I have a smilestretched from ear to earto see you walking down the roadwe meet at the lightsI stare for a whilethe world around disappearsjust you and meon this island of hopea breath between us could be mileslet me surround youmy sea to your shorelet me be the calm you seekoh and every time I'm close to youthere's too much I can't sayand you just walk awayI can be such a wimp when it

2006-05-25T17:39:00.000+08:00

Playing:My results stinks, probably one of my lousiest ever. My tooth hurts like mad and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm going crazy from being stuck at home all day and studying Chinese. This stinks. My surgery got changed to Monday which means I have to stay at home with a swollen mouth, sulking instead of at the beach kayaking and indulging in post-exams joy.Staying at home makes one

2006-05-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

Playing:it sucks when everyone online is either busy doing their work or in a bad mood to talk to you. things never really seem to work out right. when i'm feeling good and happy, for a change, the world seems to be turning against me. i want that euphoric feeling again. i want to feel deliriously happy. make me.

2006-05-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

Playing:when you look at yourself in the mirror, what is the first thing you look at?forehead. lol.how much cash do you have on you today?not much.what word rhymes with "test?"rest - something i really need.favourite plant?i dont like plants.who is the fourth person on your missed call list on your cell phone?yueyun.what is the main ringtone on your cell phone?westlife - amazing!what shirt are

2006-05-18T17:23:00.000+08:00

Playing: Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever HadTarz and I was right, 2006 is indeed the Year of Teeth. I'm currently awaiting my turn to get my braces fixed on so I can have straight teeth and now, I need to undergo a small op to get 2 wisdom teeth removed. Joy. I'll probably die of the pain. I can't even bare to think about the exorbitant amount of money that will be spent on my teeth."I've never

2006-05-16T09:49:00.000+08:00

Playing:People like to make goals that are unattainable, that are out of reach. We make things sound simple when it's far from that. We think we can change the way things are by breaking it down kindergarten style. It's not always the case of getting back as much as you put in. We like to have hope but only to see yet another stab at our ego. Sometimes, I wonder why I even try. Call me a skeptic

2006-05-15T13:22:00.000+08:00

Playing: The Murmurs - Bumble BeeDO YOU CARE?When was the last time you asked someone, "how are you?" or, "how's your day?" or even, "what's up?" and really wanted to know? Sometimes it feels like no-one care or perhaps we're all to selfish to even bother. Don't mind me, exams have made me a little nutty and estranged from the real world. I need sleep, I need to let my morbid obsession with

2006-05-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

Playing:Snagged this from Dap.About girls: Turned ON, OFF or DC (don'tcare)Dresses like a grandma: SO SO OFF.Plays musical instrument: ON!Is shorter than you: OFF (im like damn short already can!)Same height as you: DCIs taller than you: ONHas chapped lips: EW. OFF.Has green eyes: ONHas blue eyes: ON!Has brown eyes: ONHas long hair: DCHas med. hair: DCHas short hair: DCDrinks alcohol: DCSmokes

2006-05-11T15:41:00.000+08:00

Playing:HAHAHAHA. THIS IS SHIT UNCONSTRUCTIVE POST BUT:WESTLIFE'S FILMING THE DVD IN WEMBLEY. NOT CHINA!!!I'm beyond happy about that.In other news, for today's English P2 paper, the passage was on China. Talk about karma. :I can't sleep in the day. Can't sleep at night. I'm tired, angsty, grumpy.I feel old and nonstalgic. I feel sad and droopy. I feel alone and left out.I feel stupid and

2006-05-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

Playing:I WANT TO GO TO COLDPLAY'S CONCERT! BADLY! ):

2006-05-08T16:12:00.000+08:00

Playing: Jem - Maybe I'm AmazedI always have the urge to write at the most inappropriate moments. Like early in the morning when I'm brushing my teeth and preparing for school or like during one of my many exam paper. I shouldn't even be writing this now but everything in the world seemed so much more interesting than sitting down and studying for my History paper.I miss The OC Season 2 with

2006-05-07T02:31:00.000+08:00

Playing:Bisexuality - The Pandora's BoxThat, is a very interesting read. I don't know much about other bisexuals but for me, I had my fair share of being emotionally attached to guys and girls. Each experience is exhilarating and kicks up a whirlwind of romance. (I don't quite know what I'm saying now actually, haha.) I'll choose to ignore the sexual side of it all since.. yeah. Haha. But I'll

2006-05-06T01:47:00.000+08:00

Playing:I don't quite know why I've been making such melancholy and cynical posts lately. But they say when you write, no matter how restricted, it tends to match the way you feel at the point of time. I find burying my head in books helpful because for that one moment, you forget who you are and whatever that is bothering you is cast away at least temporary, albiet just a short while. It's

2006-05-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

Playing: No Doubt - RunningI don't quite knowHow to say; how I feelThose three wordsAre said too much, they're not enoughIf I lay hereIf I just lay hereWould you lie with me and just forget the world?You know how sometimes you get the feeling that you're rambling on, a thousand words spewing from your mouth, but no one quite seems to hear you? No one quite seems to comprehand the words that

2006-04-29T20:01:00.000+08:00

Playing: Jimmy Eat World - 23You think you've got it all going your way. Think again.You think I'll forever be your puppet, my strings pulled by you.You think you know me like the palm of your hand.And that you can twist me around your little finger.Or I'll always be hanging onto your every word.Well. That's what you think. But, you know what I think?I think: Fuck them. Fuck You. Fuck everything

2006-04-29T01:28:00.000+08:00

Playing: Come What MayDap is sore when she starts losing at the start of a minesweeper game. TSK.

2006-04-26T17:57:00.000+08:00

Playing:lacto-ovo vegetarian is a vegetarian who consumes dairy products (i.e. milk and its derivatives, like cheese, butter, or yogurt) and eggs.yes, that's me. i've stopped eating meat for three days now and still counting. shall see if I can hold out till a week. And maybe if then, I still haven't succumb to the temptation of meat, I might go even further.I'm so proud of myself! Even though I

2006-04-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

Playing:And we'll walk to the end. To the point of no return. Where words aren't nothing but noise which slowly, fades into the dark horizon.

2006-04-23T02:18:00.000+08:00

Playing:It took so long for me to break the wall I had unconciously built around myself.I can just feel it building up around me again. That familiar guarded and defensive feeling. Back. Again.

2006-04-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

Playing: Alison Krauss - The Scarlet Tide HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACKIE BOO!!!!!

2006-04-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

Playing:I'm feeling a bit fat and icky now. ): This sucks.I keep feeling neurotic even at like 9 in the morning and I just keep squirming and squirming. I can't believe I'm saying this, but school is like so much more fun now than life outside of it. Maybe its like an escape from reality. I want to relive Monday afternoon again! HEEEEEE. :XJAC OWES ME LIKE A GAZILLION GOOD DEED MAN.

2006-04-18T01:00:00.000+08:00

Playing:Thanks for nothing

2006-04-15T03:21:00.000+08:00

Playing: Bic Runga - SwayThere is always the danger of automatic writing. The danger of writing yourself towards an ending that need never be told. At a certain point the story gather momentum. It convinces itself, and does it best to convince you, that the end in sight is the only possible outcome. There is a fatefulness and a loss of control that are somehow confusing. This was your script,

2006-04-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

Playing: Will Young - Who Am IEach year today, I can't help but be overwhelemed with sadness and regret.I miss you

2006-04-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

Playing:I really should make it a point to update my blog more frequently. This is slightly late but whatever..HAPPY BIRTHDAY MILO & KOOKIE!!!(04/04)and, not forgetting..HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA KONG!!!(05/04)

2006-03-31T14:45:00.000+08:00

Playing:CURRENTLY, I HAVE MACARONI WITH CHICKEN AND MUSHROOM CASSEROLE IN THE OVEN. LOADED WITH OODLES OF CHEESE. I JUST DRANK A TALL CUP OF CAFE MOCCA.TO MY LOVELY 4X100 GIRLS: IT'S OKAY IF WE DIDN'T WIN. WE RAN HARD, WE KNOW THAT AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTER. I LOVE ALL OF YOU.OMG/I NEED TO FIND PEOPLE TO EAT SUSHI BUFFET WITH ME! APPLY WITH ME ON MSN!

2006-03-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

Playing: Broken Social Scene - Lover's SpitYou know you really flipped when Peter Paige (Emmett Honeycutt from QaF US) starts appearing in your dreams in McDonald's WITH YOUR EX-CLASSMATE'S MOTHER! Who also happens to be a devout Catholic.

2006-03-20T23:31:00.000+08:00

Playing: Betty - JesusOMFG. YOU'LL NEVER GUESS WHO WE MET! /FAINTS AND DIES. I LOVE YA, YUEYUN!!!! :D

2006-03-20T01:00:00.000+08:00

Playing:Nobody likes to have to put on a frontAnd have to act like everything's okayWhen it has never been..And you know you're screwedWhen you can't even tell when you're faking and when you're notI thought I finally made it throughThat those days were overBut it only just begun.

2006-03-18T03:02:00.000+08:00

Playing: Westlife - My Love (acoustic)Couldn't make you see itThat I loved you more then you will ever knowAnd part of me died when I let you goBut nights like thisIt seems are slowly fleetingThey disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

2006-03-15T22:57:00.001+08:00

Playing: Westlife - My GirlMeet Erin, my Irish bear. :D :D

2006-03-11T19:08:00.000+08:00

Playing:Spot the resemblance, trust JacJac to notice that both Brian and I have lost our mind.Welcome my one week vacation, no thanks to the teachers who have to cram in HOURS so we'll still be the good students that we are and keep studying for our O fucking Levels.